Rosebud

In search of God’s faces – Part 2

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We lack the Oneness and the Unique. We need the missing piece of the puzzle. All the world, in fact, is trying to find it in many ways, mostly on an unconscious level.

In a former (unconscious) state of being man had lived in this unity. We can read about ADAM, written ADM in Hebrew. The Hebrew letters do not contain any vowels, only consonants. The vowels can be placed anywhere. They are products of thought. Why? They are like life; they set the tone but are not fixed. They are left open for the sake of man. It’s left to him to place them.

The word Adam stands for humanity. It is written with the signs Aleph, Daleth and Mem, the values of which are 1, 4 and 40 and which together in the total of the digits make up the number 9. Since time immemorial, the number 9 has been regarded as the number of the human being, the human being who has found the unity of the spirit, the soul and the body. The peculiar thing about the word Adam is that if you leave out the 1, the Aleph, it means "blood". The heart in this world, which has not found inner unity, is usually seen as just a "pump" for the blood.

A similar example of the intelligence behind language is the Hebrew word for truth: emeth (1-40-400). If we leave out the 1 here, it means death. If we do not find the Oneness, the Unity, we suffer death.

But there comes a time when the measure of things is full, when the barrel starts to overflow, as it were, the day when man has "had enough", enough of the sloping position he’s in.

Then questions arise that make it possible to dig deep within. Man’s heart gives him courage to do so (in French the word coeur = heart is related to courage). He carefully breaks through a layer within his Self, the layer he has been in love with until now, in which he has seen his reflection like in a mirror. This is reminiscent of Narcissus, the youth from Greek mythology who fell in love with his own reflection and, when a leaf fell on the surface of the water, believed that the distorted image represented his own.

This personal face has to be given up for another face, for an encounter like the one Mary experienced in the Gospel of the same name (the Gnostic Gospel according to Mary). In it, she explains to the disciples that she saw the Lord "in a face" and asked him, "Lord, does a man who sees, see the face by the soul or by the spirit?" To which the Saviour replied, "He seeth not by the soul, neither by the spirit: but that which is between these two, it is the mind [the unity of heart and head] that seeth the vision."

Something that was existent before we existed taps gently on our consciousness. It changes this world more than any theoretical concept could ever do and propels man into another reality. If one allows this to happen, one still remains within the world, but increasingly is no longer of the world. From this, a living space develops in which the soul is renewed and begins to breathe anew. Man awakens from his previous dream state and sees within himself, in the midst of his mind and sensory apparatus the most sacred things: inner dignity, God's glory.

Through this, sound and scriptural images such as those in the Kabbalah, for example, reach him in a completely different way. These images reveal themselves to him through his new openness, opened by a key that the heart has created from its depth, beyond feelings and emotions.1 In the personality, a unity arises again as an image and likeness of a hitherto incomprehensible line of force. The link (the piece of the puzzle that had been missing) is the consciousness that can allow this change and "let be" the previous being. The participation in the whole can now project itself into consciousness.

In joyful contemplation, a tear (Hebrew: a yod) dissolves and forms the letter yod (value 10), beginning with the One, the Oneness and Unique from "above". Opposite the Oneness, in the Garden of Love, on the original Planet earth, the androgynous human being once lived, united as man and woman in one body.

“Later [however] man becomes bisexual and the reflection changes. Then we see that the divine world is mirrored on Earth as a 10 through the "fragmented" human being – split into male and female, which together form a broken 10 (= Yod). This Yod falls apart into 2 Hehs (sign for "window"; with the numerical value 5).” 2

In a house, a window enables you to look outside. The two signs facing each other reflect one another in the sign of Wawin between them – a hook representing the original integrated human form.

 

  • 1. Jan van Rijckenborgh und Catharose de Petri, The universal Gnosis, Chapter 1
  • 2. Benita Kleiberg, Rose und Kabbala, Kristall Reihe 10, Rosenkreuz Verlag, Birnbach
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